Thursday, March 3, 2011

There's A Reason and A Conclusion

There really is. I know it's been a few weeks since I've posted and every time I come back from a hiatus I promise I'll get better about posting. Every day I have multiple things to blog about, but when it comes time to sit down and blog I can't find it. It being the patience to sort through my thoughts and feelings and put them into articulate sentences and paragraphs.

I'm just entering the eighth month of this pregnancy and for some reason it feels like the tenth month. I didn't get this way with Hazel and only remember feeling this way in the last month and ten days I went over due with Amelia.

From the moment I'm awakened by Hazel slamming her door open and the startled cries of Amelia being rudely awakened I have to force myself to tap into that seemingly invisible well of patience. Though I love my life and my sweet little family, right now most days feel like I've spent an eternity trying to be intentional with them and myself.

So while I sort through these emotions and reserve my energy for my little family, please be patient with me. I have so much that I want to share with you all. I hope to get there soon.

For now I've come to the conclusion that if I let myself stress eat "crap food" every now and then (read: once or twice a week...or day), but am honest with myself about it doesn't count. Especially if I eat well the week of my next check up/weigh in. I've accepted this justification as an acceptable reality in my life...for now.

I'd ask your opinion but I may not like your answer. Feel free to indulge my justification in the comment area below!


Marie C. said...

It sounds to me like you're doing well -- a lot better than you may be feeling right now. It's okay to indulge in treats and the occasional bit of stress eating as long as we're honest with ourselves about what we're doing. The skies are gray, kids are cranky everywhere around the state this week, we've been stuck inside too long because of the weather...and you're pregnant! Give yourself a bit of credit and a bit of a breather. You deserve it. :-)

pistolsnprincesses said...

Thank you for the encouragement!